Duh!

'The Goodness of God endureth continually' (Psa 52:1). The goodness of God refers to the perfection of His nature: 'God is light, and in Him is no darkness at all' (1 John 1:5). There is such an absolute perfection in God's nature and being that nothing is wanting to it or defective in it, and nothing can be added to it to make it better.

In house church last night we went over what Worship is and the what it means to really worship. There was part of a verse that a friend pointed out that has been with me since she read it. "and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled up to all the fullness of God" (Eph. 3:19, NASB). We can really be truly filled up with with the fullness of God and how wonderful would that be if we lived each day with his fullness.

There have been times over the last few weeks that I've been doubting my future and the goodness that is out there for me. I have at times felt really sorry for myself and it's been rough. I have to remind myself that things could be worse, I could be without financial support and be struggling to live in my home and not have food to eat. There are others that are not as well off as I am. That is what I keep telling myself, but still I continue to doubt. I am not in the Word as I should be and not praying for the Lords guidance as I should be. I sometimes feel that it's not worth it and not helping so why even try. Well, that is just silly and I'm being dumb. I MUST be in the Word and praying. Not just for the job situation but for everything in my life. I am thankful and really truly feel blessed and need to continue to trust that there is a great job out there for me and to thank the Lord for is greatness and to be filled with his fullness.

I had a duh moment and that is that I am so weak and without the Lord I could do nothing. He is the one constant in my life and I have to remind myself that the enemy is trying to tear me down and destroy my faith and I have to be in prayer and in the Word in order to defeat him. It's simple really and I am making it so much harder than necessary.

I am asking for my friends to continue to pray and support me in this time of transition and to help me remain strong. I am thankful for all my family and my friends who are the ones who have to hear it and have been supportive and have told me to buck up and get a grip. It's not the end of the world and I'm very blessed to have what I do have and I am able to do pay my bills and remain in my home and others in my same situation are not as blessed.

Thank you to everyone who has been there for me and I could not have made it this far without you!!!! Much love!!!!!!

Feeling blessed!

I am feeling really blessed. I have been out of work since January 2008 and really focused on finding a job and finishing school. My goal is to be a nurse in the next three years; however, in the meantime I am on my way to finishing my Associates Degree in Business Management. I have been fortunate to be able to finish my degree during this time off.

It's been a challenging time for me to be off work this long, since this is the first time in 20 years that I have been out of work and it's not really fun. Thank God for family and friends who are really supportive and have helped me stay focused and grounded during this time.

The Lord is to be praised during this experience and tranisition in my life. He has been there every step of the way, even though I may not always feel Him and when I've not been good at communicating to Him, He is always there to set me straight.

I want to make sure that everyone knows that the Lord is the reason I have not lost my mind. I have doubted and not trusted on many occasions but it's not the Lord that has not been faithful. I have strayed a bit and have not beenas faithful to the Lord and all He has done for me and I am continually asking for prayer for the situation and that the Lord guides me in this transition and allows me to know when the right job comes available and I don't make the wrong decision.

Much love to everyone who has been there for me, you know who you are, and want to thank you very much for listening to me and being a shoulder to cry on.

God bless!!!!!